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"The Unending Dives in Kim's Life"
I just discovered jackass on myspace. He's now fucking his best friend's girlfriend, the girl his best friend was dating while I was married to jackass, the girl who lived with said best friend, the girl who was home when jackass went to best friend's house EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND! Did I question it? Sure, but I also didn't want to be the demanding wife that had to beg her own husband to spend time with her. Doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out how long that little fuck fest has been going on.
What an idiot. What a narcissistic asshole he is. I KNEW he was cheating on me, every time and he thought I was stupid enough to believe his lies. I may have chosen not to confront the lies, but I still knew they were lies.
A year may have passed since I left him, since I blew up the emails I found to gargantuan proportions and made 375 copies to throw about the house for him to find, but the sickening feeling in my stomach, the locking of my jaw, the disbelief that I married him and wasted such beautiful memories on him.... it still hurts. It still kills me to know I was just a pawn in his game, that I was so unimportant to him.
I am so sending the letter. He deserves it.
Oh, Kim... I am so sorry you have to go through this............
He is more than pathetic and more than a loser.
Posted by: tina | May 14, 2006 at 06:00 AM
I just sent a letter to my ex (well, a few weeks ago) and feel SO MUCH BETTER about things. And not that it's the right thing, but THANK GOODNESS you did trust yourself and find out now rather than 10 years down the road. Hang in there. :)
Posted by: wenders | May 14, 2006 at 07:09 AM
Kim, I feel so sick for you. I know the empty, horrible pit in your stomach because I have been there. It is a roller coaster. Good days, and then these days. I will tell you what a fellow blogger friend of mine told me when I found out about the girl my ex-husband was fucking. What he does, or does not do, who he sleeps with, how he leads his life, it doesn't affect you. It doesn't change who you are, what you have done, the people who love you, and the great things you will do. I know it hurts, but it will get better. I promise. Take care of yourself and just know that feeling this pain now is all part of the healing process.
Posted by: Nicole | May 14, 2006 at 01:56 PM
Amen sister..... I'm living that life right now and I know what it's like living with all the lies, and everything else in the WORLD is a priority before you... have strength... YOU are wonderful and we like YOU! To hell with the asshole.
Posted by: Mia | May 16, 2006 at 11:53 AM
I'm sorry you have to go through all this. Even though I don't know you, I do know that you are so much better than he is and you deserve the world. You are better without him and the hurt he causes. the bestfriend's girlfriend deserves him, as she must have been cheating on the bestfriend too.
Posted by: dana | May 16, 2006 at 07:18 PM
I don't know you, but please let me pass on some unsolicited advice anyway. Don't send the letter unless the simple act of doing so will help you to release some of that pain. I say this because I am certain that she won't believe you, even with the evidence staring her in the face.
I'm sorry that you are going through this. What a jackass. Take care of yourself.
Posted by: jennifer | May 18, 2006 at 02:23 PM