I miss having a guy friend.
I had one once. And technically I still do but our friendship is not the same since he got married in 2004. There are things we used to talk about in the middle of the night on the phone that just wouldn't be right to talk about now. There was a closeness we had that I don't feel would be right to carry on. Because if I were his wife, that kind of thing would make me nervous.
We practically grew up together. Since grade 8. When we both pegged our jeans and wore bright turquoise shirts. Then he moved away but we still kept in touch. And then I moved to where he moved and he was the only person I knew in the city (besides my mother's relatives.)
Then the thing that we've only talked about once happened and we didn't speak for four years. But then he got sick and we became friends again, like nothing ever changed.
I miss the kind of friendship we had. It wasn't illicit or dirty. But he knew me and sometimes I told him things I never would tell my girlfriends. And sometimes I'd ask him questions just to get a guy's opinion. He is still to this day the only guy I've ever known that hasn't lied to me. Ever. And he's the only guy I ever trusted implicitly. Ever.
But life goes on.
So how do I, a twenty-something year old woman, develop a friendship with a guy, man, that doesn't start off with a love interest? How does that happen? Does that happen? Is it possible to be friends with the opposite sex without sex involved?
I know I've met all the wrong types of guys. I've met The Liar, The Cheater, The Emotionally Unavailable and The Chef's Special (a combination of all three). I've met Mr. Clingy, Mr. Money and Mr. Tom Cruise (believe me, there are more of his type out there).
I'm tired of all those guys. I'm tired of being let down and drug around. I'm tired of not recognizing and labeling the emotional unavailability/cheating/lying too late, when he's also physically unavailable.
Where are the ones I can be friends with first? Or just friends with period? Where are the guys that are done with hidden agendas and want more from a relationship than just sex and food? (Is there such a thing? More to a relationship than just sex and food in a guy's eyes?)